it's not a life decision, its a destiny.

well dah dekat sebulan lebih tak update blog. Nak letak gambar tunang pun tak sempat. Tp takpela cukupla just letak dkt fb je. Buatpe nk tayang satu dunia btul tak.haha. By the way takde byk pun nk share kt sini. Just nak becakap pasal topik di atas tu. It's not a life decision, its a destiny. Yes its a destiny. Im getting married next week, on 3rd september 2011. Haritu takde pikir ape2 but lately ni i mcm tiba-tiba terfikir, betul ke decision yg i buat? i mean i baru je kenal dgn my fiance about 3 months a go and then we decided to get married. such a rush kan? i pun taktau. i main gamble je nak kawin. but gamble2 pun i stil kenal betul2 la dgn my fiance, and then i feel he's ok so i asked him to marry me and luckily he willingly to marry me. But now taktaula...makin dekat tarikh kawin ni makin macam2 i pikir. Betul ke keputusan yg i buat? but i know, its actually not a decision. Its a destiny. Sbb kalau nak difikir secara logiknya lah. Mustahil i akan berkahwin secepat ni. I accept everything yg tejadi dlm hidup i ni with widely open heart. Just i risau hari-hari yg akan mendatang. Boleh ke i face? Dah cukup ready ke i? Tapi i terima smua ni sbg takdir hidup i. Even kesakitan yg dulu tu stil berbekas dlm hati i, tp i tak boleh jadikan itu alasan utk i terus bersedih and terus hidup dlm kenangan. I must accept that everything happen for a reason. As for now i sgt bahagia dgn ape yg Tuhan dh bagi pada i. Dia bagi i seorang lelaki yg sgt caring, yg betul menyayangi i apa adanya. Dia tak pernah merungut, dia always try his best to make me happy. Alhamdulillah. Bukan mudah nak jumpe lelaki muda yang sanggup bagi komitmen sebesar ni pada seorang perempuan and i rasa sgt besyukur. Cuma i berdoa yg dia takkan berubah. I harap dia akan remain mcm skrg. Ape2 yg bakal terjadi pada masa depan, i akan tempuh bersama2. Semoga Tuhan tak duga i dgn sesuatu yg i tak mampu nak tanggung. I tak sanggup nak sakit lagi. Kesakitan 4 tahun yg i rasa dulu masih berbekas dlm hati i. In fact benda tu still keep flashback dlm kepala i. I taknak smua benda tu menganggu relationship i. I harap things will get better from day to day. I terima suratan takdir walaupun kadang2 i mcm nk mempersoalkan kenapa smuani tejadi. Skrg ni tinggal seminggu je lagi sebelum i bergelar isteri org. Sebenarnya ade perasaan takut. Nampak simple tp sebenarnya lepas kahwin komitmen dah berbeza. Tp takpelah, as i said earlier, its my destiny so i must accept it! yes i will. Kawan2 tolong doakan i ok. Ape2 yg jadi lepasni i akan hadap je. Hopefully i cukup kuat. Amin. and for sure i will keep continue to dream big! =)