i love u mama & abah. I love u for every single thing. How i wish i can pay every single thing that u've sacrifice for me. Your time, money, energy and so many things i can't even list. Thankyou for always be by my side. For all the bless you gave. Thank you for showing me the way of life. Thankyou for never giving up in raising me with full of thought & lesson. Thankyou for never dissapointing me for anything that i want. You are greatest mom & dad in my eyes. You will always be. For every minute i breath, i pray that Allah will gives you great health & long live so i can grow old & older with you. I can't imagine my life without you, you are my greatest backbone. Ya Allah, give them all your bless & mercy. Pls love them just like they love me with full of their heart. For every minutes that passed by, i wish i can stay longer wit you, i wish this feeling will never dissapear. ;') Adik sayang mama & abah.
dream BIG.
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Sunday, October 17, 2010
It's a life decision.
Ok. tajuk kali ni nampak mcm serius, so i tak boleh nak jadi seperti dahulu kala. Tapi sedikit sebanyak rasanya i tak boleh tinggal penyakit gila i walau dlm apa keadaan sekali pun. Haiihh.. What to do that's me. Kalau sekali tgk macam ayu, 2 kali tgk mcm vogue, 3 kali tgk mcm nak cari gaduh, berkali-kali tgk mcm nak mintak sain. Hahaha. Ok, sekian dulu mukadimah untuk hari ini.
Yes. Mmg post kali ni agak serius, mmg serius. I don't know how am i going to explain this. I bet this is not the right time for this story. I should keep it to myself first. I will write everything soon or maybe later. For the time being, I should think of moving on and keep on moving. This is not a love story, it's a lifetime challenge & difficulties i must adapt.
Sad, frustrated, i am. I can't deny. But i believe, things happen for a reason. Time will tell everything. Its not that im giving up, its not that im not trying. I believe, this is not my way. I will keep saying this, cause deep inside my heart, i feel down & frustrated. All i can do now is just follow my heart.
Ok, now im losing my apetite. I felt terrible. My mood swings up and down. I can't think. Im stuck and I just don't know what to do, sometimes, i did cry. I never expect that i will face this kind of situation. To be honest, i am sad. Enough said.
Tomorrow, there's a new hope. I try to rely on it, but i have no idea what is going to happen later. I pray & keep praying for a better day when i wake up the next day. Im scared, im afraid but no matter how bad is the feeling, i shouldn't let all the feeling control myself. I need to fight for myself. I will, InsyaAllah. God is always there for u. ;')
And as i always said, we should never stop to DREAM BIG. Even if we fall down today, doesn't mean we are paralyze tomorrow. Believe in yourself.
Yes. Mmg post kali ni agak serius, mmg serius. I don't know how am i going to explain this. I bet this is not the right time for this story. I should keep it to myself first. I will write everything soon or maybe later. For the time being, I should think of moving on and keep on moving. This is not a love story, it's a lifetime challenge & difficulties i must adapt.
Sad, frustrated, i am. I can't deny. But i believe, things happen for a reason. Time will tell everything. Its not that im giving up, its not that im not trying. I believe, this is not my way. I will keep saying this, cause deep inside my heart, i feel down & frustrated. All i can do now is just follow my heart.
Ok, now im losing my apetite. I felt terrible. My mood swings up and down. I can't think. Im stuck and I just don't know what to do, sometimes, i did cry. I never expect that i will face this kind of situation. To be honest, i am sad. Enough said.
Tomorrow, there's a new hope. I try to rely on it, but i have no idea what is going to happen later. I pray & keep praying for a better day when i wake up the next day. Im scared, im afraid but no matter how bad is the feeling, i shouldn't let all the feeling control myself. I need to fight for myself. I will, InsyaAllah. God is always there for u. ;')
And as i always said, we should never stop to DREAM BIG. Even if we fall down today, doesn't mean we are paralyze tomorrow. Believe in yourself.
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Saturday, October 9, 2010
I feel TOUCHED
Oh em ji..utk kesekian kalinya,, eh kesekian kalinya? mcm over je bunyik tuh. No i mean utk ketiga kalinya, hah mcm cacat pulak bunyi die. hahaa ape2 jelah. Ok actually nak bagitau utk kali ketiga my blogshop masuk paper.. Ohh sgt terharu.. Bukan nk menunjuk, sekadar berkongsi kegembiraan..ceehh ngade2.. masuk paper sikit dh nk kecoh. hehe biaselah jakun mmg cenggini. By the way, special thanks to KHAIRUNNISA KAMARUDIN for the cover. Really appreciate it. Nah tgklah gambar yg tak seberapa kt bawah ni. Sorry for the unclear image, i got this pic from my friend. I missed to get the copy ;(.. But its ok my friend will post it to me later. Yeaaayyy! Thanks Alya Roslan for the photo. U're so sweet. ;)
p/s: i told u guys to DREAM BIG. Impossible is NOTHING. =)
Friday, October 1, 2010
Rendang Ayam Part 1
ok kawan2. ye, i mengaku mmg i dah lama tak update blog. mmg i bukan sorg blogger yg berdisiplin. sedihnye, taknak la jadi blogger lagi!! ;'( eh ehh eh.. macam ade org kesah. tak kemane la blog kau ni. stakat menulis 2,3 bulan sekali sapela nk hadap.. eh dah kenape aku kutuk blog sendiri?? hah.cukup ok cuuukuupp mukadimah utk kali ini,. hai kawan2 semua, apa khabar?? anda semua sihat kah? diharap kalian sihat-sihat saja. Kalau xsihat jumpa doktor, aicehh mcm karangan surat cinta masa sekolah rendah la? u guys penah tak dapat surat or u guys yg bagi surat mcm tu?? ayat common kalau bagi kat sepuluh org..sepuluh org ayat yg sama "awak sihat tak? kalau tak sihat jumpa doktor" hahahaha. lawak. eh eh eh. bukan i yg bagi surat mcmni eh?? org yg bagi i surat okeeyyy!! haa, jgn igt kecik2 i xde peminat, walaupun i masa kecik hitam, kurus kering tak secantik sekarang (cantiikk ke tidekkkk??) tapi masih ade yg minat tau. Org ckp hitam itu bergaya. haahahaahah adoi ape yg i merepek ni. bukan ke tadi cakap sudaahh?? heh.
kejap, nk tulis ape ye kali ni...hmmmm..hmmm..i nak update pasal i join makeup show haritu, tapi malas pulak. Bosanlah asik nak bermodel-model, meletup sgt kee nk cerita model ni? hahaha. adoih. ok i dah dapat idea. Hari ni i nak mengajar macam mana nk masak rendang ayam. HOOII, mulut kau jaga sikit, kau igt aku taktau masak ke? (padahal org x cakap pape pun, terasa sendiri nampak sgtla..eh cukup!!). I pandai masak tau. Cuma tak cukup kerajinan je nk memasak selalu.hihiihh. By the way untuk gadis-gadis meletup di luar sana, belajar-belajar la memasak ye. kalau tak pro at least basic kena tau, takdela nti bila pegi rumah bakal mak mentua terkebil-kebil taktau nk buat ape. Kalau betul tak pandai pun buat2 je pandai. Taruk je ape ade kita tgk result dia mcm mana, kau gila! Makan hatila mak mentua kau. Yelah nk mkn hasil air tgn kau dah hancuss, makaaanlllaaa haaattiiiii. hahaha. adoih. I pun xdela terer sangat masak uols. Biasalah, i anak perempuan PALING RAJIINN kesayangan mak bapak i. Tapi disebabkan i kena kerahan tenaga dgn mak bapak i suruh MASAK! jadi dgn tak rela hatinya i masaak. Isshh ape punya anak.
Igt lagi dulu tgh sedap2 nk baca paper sambil minum kopi, mak i panggil "adiikkkkkkkkkk, maaasaaaaakkk!!", i dgn derhakanya buat2 tak dgr. Tak lama selepas tu, i rasa mcm ada bayang2 lembga belakang i... "ooohhh mak hang!!" i melatah dalam hati. Sekali bapak i dekat belakang daa. Dia tak cakap pape pun, die tgk je i, terus merudum2 berlari ke dapur. OOoooo takut bapak rupanye ye....?? bukan takut tapi hormat.. Maka bermulalah episod i memasak. Mula2 masak mmg i satu hape pun xtau,bapak i jadi chief tgk i masak "mula2 masuk hat ni, lepaih tu masuk hat ni plak, biaq pecah minyak baru masuk ikan, lepaihtu masuk garam gula cukup ghasa....bla bla blaaa...." isshh comel je bapak i ni ajar anak perempuan die masak. kekeke mula2 mmg annoying nak matila rasa kena paksa masak, nak2 time tu pulak ade cerita fevret i ke xpun tgh baca paper ke, hiiishhh mmg potong habis. Tapi lama2 dengan secara tidak sedar i mulai rasa perubahan dlm diri i, waaaawww dah pandai masak rupanya aku, hahh skrg sebutla nk makan ape,, peeejaaamm mataaa je i masak, tung! taangg! tunng! taangg! kalah mamak, dan pada satu ketika bila umur makin meningkat dewasa, i bertukar daripada budak2 hingusan menjadi gadis jelita, ahahaaha, pada ketika sanak saudara datang bertandang ke rumah, i dgn bangganya menjadi chef PALING CANTIK sekali memasak utk para tetamu. "Silaa sila jemput makan, haa tambah taambah tammbah"..dah rupa bibik dah aku, cantik ke tidekkk?? so masa ni baru tersedar kenapa perempuan perlu tau memasak, bergenang air mata i bila teringat susah payah ayah i mengajar i masak. Cehh bergenang sangatla kau, padahal sikit pun xde perasaan baring terbunkang setelah penat memasak. Dalam hati i "nasib baik abah ajar masak dulu"..ermm kenapa bapak i yg ajar masak? mak i xreti masak ke? hohooii ckp siang pandang2. Ckp malam dalam kelam, mak i tu ratu segala ratu, ape benda yg dia tak reti masak??? Unta panggang berempah keju pun dia tau ok, cuma mungkin mak i ni tak cukup menakutkan jadi bila dia suruh i masak mmg tak jalan. Hahahaha tak guna punya anak.
So moral of the story, kita kenala pandai masak, especially perempuan. Mmgla pempuan skg kalau xtau masak tu normal, tapi kan lebih bagus kalau kita menjadi someone yg lain dari biasa? Lagipun i rasa ciri2 pmpuan tu tak lengkap kalau x boleh masak. Skrg sebelum kahwin mmgla x rasa sgt, nti bila dh kawin pgi rumah sdara mintak tlg masak mulala tekebil2 taktau nk buatpe, kan malu? lagi malu kalau mak mentua ade. hihihi. Lpastu one day kalau ade anak2, tiba2 anak2 nak makan suruh mak masak, tibe2 mak tak reti masak.. aiihh kan rasa xsedap mcmtu. Jadi marilah kita same2 belajar memasak. I pun x expert lagik, kalau memasak berjam2 jugakla nk siap, tapi i masak sedap tau. Bukan i ckp, keyboard ni yg ckp. hahahaah.
By the way latest recipe yg i blajar ialah mcm mane nk masak rendang ayam. Perrgghh walaweeeeeyy! I punya rendang terangkattt bontot kalau makan. Sdap! hahaah. nak rasa? tgu raya haji. kekeke. ok harini pun actually i nak share pasal mcm mana nk masak rendang ayam, tapi dah termelalut pulak. see u soon lah. Tulang belakang dah nak landing. Annoying ler minah ni haih. :D
Selamat Bersambung..............................
kejap, nk tulis ape ye kali ni...hmmmm..hmmm..i nak update pasal i join makeup show haritu, tapi malas pulak. Bosanlah asik nak bermodel-model, meletup sgt kee nk cerita model ni? hahaha. adoih. ok i dah dapat idea. Hari ni i nak mengajar macam mana nk masak rendang ayam. HOOII, mulut kau jaga sikit, kau igt aku taktau masak ke? (padahal org x cakap pape pun, terasa sendiri nampak sgtla..eh cukup!!). I pandai masak tau. Cuma tak cukup kerajinan je nk memasak selalu.hihiihh. By the way untuk gadis-gadis meletup di luar sana, belajar-belajar la memasak ye. kalau tak pro at least basic kena tau, takdela nti bila pegi rumah bakal mak mentua terkebil-kebil taktau nk buat ape. Kalau betul tak pandai pun buat2 je pandai. Taruk je ape ade kita tgk result dia mcm mana, kau gila! Makan hatila mak mentua kau. Yelah nk mkn hasil air tgn kau dah hancuss, makaaanlllaaa haaattiiiii. hahaha. adoih. I pun xdela terer sangat masak uols. Biasalah, i anak perempuan PALING RAJIINN kesayangan mak bapak i. Tapi disebabkan i kena kerahan tenaga dgn mak bapak i suruh MASAK! jadi dgn tak rela hatinya i masaak. Isshh ape punya anak.
Igt lagi dulu tgh sedap2 nk baca paper sambil minum kopi, mak i panggil "adiikkkkkkkkkk, maaasaaaaakkk!!", i dgn derhakanya buat2 tak dgr. Tak lama selepas tu, i rasa mcm ada bayang2 lembga belakang i... "ooohhh mak hang!!" i melatah dalam hati. Sekali bapak i dekat belakang daa. Dia tak cakap pape pun, die tgk je i, terus merudum2 berlari ke dapur. OOoooo takut bapak rupanye ye....?? bukan takut tapi hormat.. Maka bermulalah episod i memasak. Mula2 masak mmg i satu hape pun xtau,bapak i jadi chief tgk i masak "mula2 masuk hat ni, lepaih tu masuk hat ni plak, biaq pecah minyak baru masuk ikan, lepaihtu masuk garam gula cukup ghasa....bla bla blaaa...." isshh comel je bapak i ni ajar anak perempuan die masak. kekeke mula2 mmg annoying nak matila rasa kena paksa masak, nak2 time tu pulak ade cerita fevret i ke xpun tgh baca paper ke, hiiishhh mmg potong habis. Tapi lama2 dengan secara tidak sedar i mulai rasa perubahan dlm diri i, waaaawww dah pandai masak rupanya aku, hahh skrg sebutla nk makan ape,, peeejaaamm mataaa je i masak, tung! taangg! tunng! taangg! kalah mamak, dan pada satu ketika bila umur makin meningkat dewasa, i bertukar daripada budak2 hingusan menjadi gadis jelita, ahahaaha, pada ketika sanak saudara datang bertandang ke rumah, i dgn bangganya menjadi chef PALING CANTIK sekali memasak utk para tetamu. "Silaa sila jemput makan, haa tambah taambah tammbah"..dah rupa bibik dah aku, cantik ke tidekkk?? so masa ni baru tersedar kenapa perempuan perlu tau memasak, bergenang air mata i bila teringat susah payah ayah i mengajar i masak. Cehh bergenang sangatla kau, padahal sikit pun xde perasaan baring terbunkang setelah penat memasak. Dalam hati i "nasib baik abah ajar masak dulu"..ermm kenapa bapak i yg ajar masak? mak i xreti masak ke? hohooii ckp siang pandang2. Ckp malam dalam kelam, mak i tu ratu segala ratu, ape benda yg dia tak reti masak??? Unta panggang berempah keju pun dia tau ok, cuma mungkin mak i ni tak cukup menakutkan jadi bila dia suruh i masak mmg tak jalan. Hahahaha tak guna punya anak.
So moral of the story, kita kenala pandai masak, especially perempuan. Mmgla pempuan skg kalau xtau masak tu normal, tapi kan lebih bagus kalau kita menjadi someone yg lain dari biasa? Lagipun i rasa ciri2 pmpuan tu tak lengkap kalau x boleh masak. Skrg sebelum kahwin mmgla x rasa sgt, nti bila dh kawin pgi rumah sdara mintak tlg masak mulala tekebil2 taktau nk buatpe, kan malu? lagi malu kalau mak mentua ade. hihihi. Lpastu one day kalau ade anak2, tiba2 anak2 nak makan suruh mak masak, tibe2 mak tak reti masak.. aiihh kan rasa xsedap mcmtu. Jadi marilah kita same2 belajar memasak. I pun x expert lagik, kalau memasak berjam2 jugakla nk siap, tapi i masak sedap tau. Bukan i ckp, keyboard ni yg ckp. hahahaah.
By the way latest recipe yg i blajar ialah mcm mane nk masak rendang ayam. Perrgghh walaweeeeeyy! I punya rendang terangkattt bontot kalau makan. Sdap! hahaah. nak rasa? tgu raya haji. kekeke. ok harini pun actually i nak share pasal mcm mana nk masak rendang ayam, tapi dah termelalut pulak. see u soon lah. Tulang belakang dah nak landing. Annoying ler minah ni haih. :D
Selamat Bersambung..............................
DREAM BIG =)
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