4 more months to go!

Waahhh pejam celik pejam celik nahhh. Its already 5 months i'm pregnant! omg. cepatnye masa, Maknanya cepat jugakla i akan deliver my baby soon. seriously nervous tak hingat punya. haritu time awal preggy rasa mcm lambat lg so mcm tak fikir sgt...now bila dah nak dekat2 due date ni rasa mak aih...takutnye....sbb i mmg takut nak besalin....tp even takut pun i stil nak besalin normal ok. hehe hope Allah permudahkan segalanya.

Btw sepanjang mengandung ni ramai yg tanye ade mengidam ape2 ke? and the answer is NO. I lansung takde mengidam pelik2, habis kuat i just teringin nak makan something yg amat mudah utk dicari. So husband i boleh bersenang-lenang takpayah nak pening2 cari makanan pelik2 utk i. haha agaknye baby i ni ikut prangai bapak die kot, tak byk songeh. kalau ikut perangai i mmg pening sikitla.hahaha, btw for those yg belum tau, my baby will be BOY! Omg, masa doc ckp i dpt baby boy mmg rasa nak menjerit sbb i mmg nak baby boy for my 1st baby. Lagipun masa awal2 pregnant lg i dah agak i mmg dapat baby boy sbb masa awal2 dulu i sgt malas ok. Sepanjang masa nak tido je. Lepastu i jd selekeh gila. Pegi keje muka tak makeup lansung. So i punya instinc mmg kuat mengatakan i akan dpt baby boy and akhirnye mmg betul! hehee Ya Allah tak sabar rasanya nak deliver baby ni. U will be my prince charming!

okay...next.about i punya pemakanan semasa mengandung. Honestly i takde pantang ape2 pun sepanjang i mengandung. Masa awal2 dulu adela sikit sbb ramai yg remind i awal2 pregnant kene jaga itu ini bla bla bla. Sampai satu tahap jadi rimas. Semua benda pun tak boleh buat then i start to ask my mom then mak i slumber je jawab, anak tu rezeki Allah...kalau Allah nak bg, dia bagi jugak, Cuba belajar beserah kepada Allah, jgn nk dgr ckp org sgt. Ohh. kene tepet sekali. Tapi betul la, kalau nak ikut ckp org sampai bila pun tak sudah kan? and i paling tak suka bila ade org nak takut2kan i. I know about their concern but the way the reminding me tu mcm nak mendoakan benda x elok jd pada I.....Masa awal2 i pregnant dulu ramai sgt yg dtg ckp dkat i, awal2 ni kene jaga betul2, takut nti baby jatuh sbb baru lg....siap ade yg ckp mcmni " jaga elok2 takut jatuh nanti. Kwn2 I ramai yg baby gugur then sampai skrg tak pregnant2 lg".....i mcm wtf?? bagus kau nak igtkan aku tp perlu ke kau nak mention pasal gugur2 dkat sorg perempuan yg sgt happy dgn berita kehamilan die? plus org ckp tu adalah org yg agak close dari segi relation die dgn i and at the same time die pun pregnant. OMG. Sgt tak suka ok! Plsssss la. Guys out there, kalau uols ade kwn2 yg baru pregnant ni bg moral support and jgn sekalai2 mention pasal gugur. Tak baik tau. Then 1 time tu i ada update pasal kegemaran i minum coke dkt FB...then mulala org komen. I know most of them concern pasal i, mmg tak elok minum coke. Tp ade pulak yg dtg cerita mcm ni " u tau adik i gugur sbb minum coke la. Masa die kencing baby tu keluar skali, mcm anak cicak baby tu"....Ya Allah, tlg la. Kenapela kau nak takutkan aku mcmtu. So start dari tu i dah takde nak update ape2 about pregnancy in fb. Biar i and husband i je tau. Actually it isn't that bad guys. As long as u take enough supplement for your baby, it shouldn't be a problem. Plus depends on kita punya rahim jugak. Kalau rahim kita kuat, kau makanla nenas 100 bijik, mnum coke 100 botol mmg takkan effect. I every month akan pegi check up dgn doc, everytime checkup doc ckp baby i ok je, so start dari tu i dah malas nak ambik pusing ape org cakap. I mmg tak pantang ape2. Ape i rasa nak makan, i just makan je. Sbb i tau benda ape yg i tringin sgt nak makan tu sebenarnye baby i yg nak, so knape i taknak bagi kan? As long as i bg baby i enough supplement then i think mmg takde masalah sbb everything pun i just berserah pada Allah je sbb Allah yg menjadikan baby i ni. So moral of the story, jgn terlalu dgr ckp org. Org ni kadang2 cemburu bila tgk org lain bahagia. That's why suka sgt create cerita2 nonsense. Bagus kalau nak mengingatkan tp biarla kene caranya. Jgnla buat hati ibu mengandung yg sensitip tu terguris, nak2 kau pun mengandung masa tu. Mcm tak patut sgt. Apa2 pun kalau tak sure refer la kpd ibu sendiri. Mereka lg berpengalaman ye kawan2. Tak payah nak dgr ckp org nak2 ckp org yg die sendiri pun tak pernah mengandung. Haha mcm lawak pulak. I share ni bukan ape guys sbb for those yg belum merasai pengalaman mengandung, 1 day u msti akan rasa jugak kan? So i taknak u guys layan cakap2 nonsense smuani. Menyakitkan hati je. If u guys mintak pendapat i, i'll for sure give u my best support and 1 more thing plsssss jgn update anything pasal pregnancy dlm facebook. Sgt tak bagus. Plus if u guys ade masalah dgn kandungan, jgn sekali2 update dkt facebook, it will make things worse. Apa2 just refer pada org yg lebih berpengalaman and doctor. Bukan ape bila kita update dkt fb ni ramai yg terlebih concern, ramaila akan dtg dgn cerita bukan2. Last2 kita yg stress. Tak elok utk baby ok. :)

Ok cukup. Dah tak larat membebel. What's next? hehe. Next ape lg. I dah tak sabar2 nak shopping brg baby. Tp not now la. Awal sgt. Igt next month baru nak start beli sikit2. Alahaii excitednye....Whatever pun tak boleh excited sgt nora. Bawak bersabar ok? okay2 i taknak excited sgt, tp i excited sikit boleh kan? haha. ok cukup2. nanti i rajin i menulis lg yer kawan2, soryy i mmg malas skit nak mengarang lately. So tkcare everyone, DREAM BIG! =)

Kari ketam in the making!

Nah kari ketam. Yummmaaayyyyhhh! :)

okayh sekarang emosi dah kembali stable. Dah cukuplah kisah-kisah cintan cintun selama lebih kurang 7 bulan lepas. Macam2 hal yg i face, so skrg ni full stop. Okay now i'm back on track. Rasa nak menulis lagi, dulu suka post pasal fashion, tp masa berubah so manusia pun boleh berubah. Bukam dah tak minat fashion, fashiom tu dah jadi darah daging, tak boleh bepisah ok, just disebabkan dah betukar status dari single ke double, so lately ni dah mula utk brush up balik skil memasak yg dah nak berkarat. To be honest, i memang pandai masa. Okay, i tau i faham mesti ramai yg tak pecaya kan? even i sendiri pun tak percaya ok, heh. Tp disebabkan kecik2 dulu bapak i suka sgt paksa i masak, hari-hari dia paksa suruh i masak. Yang lawaknya barang-barang masak semua dia dh prepare tinggal i nak campak dlm kuali periuk belanga je. I mcm heran, apahal la bapak i ni. Dah alang2 brg2 masak tu dah prepare, masak jela. Nape nak paksa i tah. I mmg sgggtttttt malas ok nak masak, menyumpah2 je dlm hati. Eh hello bukan menyumpah bapak i, i menyumpah sebab dipaksa masak. Tapi bila i dah masak, masak , masak lama-lama macam best jugak. Seronok bila bereksperimen pasal masak ni. Letak tu rasa macamtu letak ni rasa macam ni.

So last-last i dah mula jatuh cinta dgn dunia masak memasak ni. Nak cakap i terror masak ni takla terror sgt. Tapi sekadar nak menjamu tetamu makan tu , InsyaAllah i boleh sediakan. Hehe Actually before ni pun i penah nak post mcm mana nak masak rendang ayam, tapi tah ape i bebel sampai sudahnye kene buat rendang ayam part 2..Sudahnya sampai skrg i tak update2 camane nak masak rendang ayam. Haihh susah bila orang telebih cakap ni kan? i pun mcm dah lupa dah cmana nak masak rendang ayam. Tp takpe nanti i tanye mak i ok. But as for now i nak berkongsi dgn u guys mcm mana nak masak kari ketam with nanas, Superb. Sgt senang nak masak and sgt sedap! Tak pecaya? Try yourself! hehe

Bahan-bahan:

1 paket serbuk kari ikan, ketam, udang. (ade jual kt supermarket)
6 batang cili kering (batang ke? hehe)
3 ulas bawang merah, 3 ulas bawang putih
1 sudu besar jintan manis
1 mangkuk susu/ santan
Nanas( suka hati nk letak byk mana pun )
Garam dan gula secukup rasa

Cara-cara:

Sgt simple!

Mula-mula masuk serbuk kari, cili kering, bawang merah, bawang putih, jintan manis dgn sedikit air, and then kisar sampai halus. ( cili kering tu potong kecil2 then rendam buang bijik dulu tau kawan2, takut kene appendix pulak, hehe )

ok then masukkan bahan-bahan yg dikisar ke dalam kuali panaskan sampai pecah minyak. Then masukkan ketam. Gaul kejap, then masukkan susu atau santan.

Ok susu ni i guna susu kambing, susu HR kalau some of u taula. Kalau taktau mana nak cari susu ni, uols just letak santan. Senang. Rasa lebih kurang, i rasa kalau letak santan lagi sedap kot, yela benda2 sedap ni kan tak elok utk kesihatan. Haha mak i letak susu sbb parents i ni mmg sgt particular pasal makanan. Benda-benda yg tak elok utk kesihatan diorg takkan ambil. ok cukup melalut.

Then after masuk susu/santan bolehla masukkan nanas. Tunggu sampai mendidih, bila mendidih tu slow kan api. Tunggu bout 10mins, tutup api then bolehla di ngap! Oh sgt sedap pecayalah. Senang je kan nak masak die?? ops lupa. Tambahkan garam gula secukup rasa. Gula tu letak sikit je dalam setengah sudu besar. Garam letak 2 sudu kecil, tapi depends kepada brapa byk u masak la. Kalau u nak masak sekawah mana cukup garam 2 sudu kecil. hehe

ok, itu sajalah cara2 memasak kari ketam, tgk mcm complicated nak buat kan? Padahal senang nak mampus! hehe actually masak ni, kita kene banyak mencuba. Kalau sekali buat memangla tak sedap. Tapi kena keep on trying la. Nti lama-lama mestila terror kan? Boleh jadi masterchef gitu. Haha okla. Kang tak kuasa korang nak membaca i bebel panjang2. Ade org nak baca ke? haha tak kisahla, i just nak berkongsi ape yg tau dgn u guys. SO selamat mencuba!! :))

Things happen for a reason

We tie up a relationship in a piece of paper. It's not the paper that we count. Its the pure feeling between two hearts. The promise we made. Please stay strong. I rely on u. <3

I wish i can be happy with you, leave everything bout my past far behind, start a new life, a new journey. Yes it is hard for me to forget bout my past. It hurt me so bad. Really bad. But whatever it is, life must goes on. I won't let my head keep haunted by my past. Live on, move on Nora. U will gain nothing if u keep crying and keep thinking about it. Things happen for a reason. There's no use to cry over a split milk. What done is done. U don't have the power to rewind the time, wishing that everything can be repeated. U living in the present towards the future. Appreciate every single thing that u have now Nora. Stop thinking bout your ex, you are now married! you are a wife to a wonderful husband. Stop thinking bout the one who never appreciate you. He's not worth it. Let him be happy with his own life and u should be happy with your own life too nora. U got everything that u want for so long. A wonderful husband. He's caring, mature,responsible, cool, handsome, have a good carrier, he's willing to do anything just to make u smile. Yes i am so lucky to get him as my husband, thank you syg, u really safe my life. I'm sorry if i hurt u. U bear with all my problems. U never mad at me even if i told u that i'm thinking bout my ex. He's so cool. Yes i know I'm lucky! I will pay back everything that i owe u my dear husband. Stop wasting your time for something worthless. Try to work something on. Fight for your life, you want a better future isn't it? so work for it! Okay i'm done motivate myself. I will improve, i promise to myself. Things happen fora reason. God have the answer for all these. Take care Nora, take a good care of your husband too. "Yes I will" :)

it's not a life decision, its a destiny.

well dah dekat sebulan lebih tak update blog. Nak letak gambar tunang pun tak sempat. Tp takpela cukupla just letak dkt fb je. Buatpe nk tayang satu dunia btul tak.haha. By the way takde byk pun nk share kt sini. Just nak becakap pasal topik di atas tu. It's not a life decision, its a destiny. Yes its a destiny. Im getting married next week, on 3rd september 2011. Haritu takde pikir ape2 but lately ni i mcm tiba-tiba terfikir, betul ke decision yg i buat? i mean i baru je kenal dgn my fiance about 3 months a go and then we decided to get married. such a rush kan? i pun taktau. i main gamble je nak kawin. but gamble2 pun i stil kenal betul2 la dgn my fiance, and then i feel he's ok so i asked him to marry me and luckily he willingly to marry me. But now taktaula...makin dekat tarikh kawin ni makin macam2 i pikir. Betul ke keputusan yg i buat? but i know, its actually not a decision. Its a destiny. Sbb kalau nak difikir secara logiknya lah. Mustahil i akan berkahwin secepat ni. I accept everything yg tejadi dlm hidup i ni with widely open heart. Just i risau hari-hari yg akan mendatang. Boleh ke i face? Dah cukup ready ke i? Tapi i terima smua ni sbg takdir hidup i. Even kesakitan yg dulu tu stil berbekas dlm hati i, tp i tak boleh jadikan itu alasan utk i terus bersedih and terus hidup dlm kenangan. I must accept that everything happen for a reason. As for now i sgt bahagia dgn ape yg Tuhan dh bagi pada i. Dia bagi i seorang lelaki yg sgt caring, yg betul menyayangi i apa adanya. Dia tak pernah merungut, dia always try his best to make me happy. Alhamdulillah. Bukan mudah nak jumpe lelaki muda yang sanggup bagi komitmen sebesar ni pada seorang perempuan and i rasa sgt besyukur. Cuma i berdoa yg dia takkan berubah. I harap dia akan remain mcm skrg. Ape2 yg bakal terjadi pada masa depan, i akan tempuh bersama2. Semoga Tuhan tak duga i dgn sesuatu yg i tak mampu nak tanggung. I tak sanggup nak sakit lagi. Kesakitan 4 tahun yg i rasa dulu masih berbekas dlm hati i. In fact benda tu still keep flashback dlm kepala i. I taknak smua benda tu menganggu relationship i. I harap things will get better from day to day. I terima suratan takdir walaupun kadang2 i mcm nk mempersoalkan kenapa smuani tejadi. Skrg ni tinggal seminggu je lagi sebelum i bergelar isteri org. Sebenarnya ade perasaan takut. Nampak simple tp sebenarnya lepas kahwin komitmen dah berbeza. Tp takpelah, as i said earlier, its my destiny so i must accept it! yes i will. Kawan2 tolong doakan i ok. Ape2 yg jadi lepasni i akan hadap je. Hopefully i cukup kuat. Amin. and for sure i will keep continue to dream big! =)

Alhamdulillah

i have no words to describe how happy i am now. Oh my, next week on my birthday will be my engagement day. tak sangka. planning on raya but then my parents want to fast forward it to my birthday. oh this so gonna be my most meaningful birthday present. i never thought it will be this fast.we just know each other for 1 month then we decided to get into serious relationship and Alhamdulillah everything goes well. im praying that everything will smoothly goes into plan. im just so happy. this is the answer for me after i cried for so long. ALHAMDULILLAH. Thankyou Allah for this special gift. I really appreciate it :))

after i cried for so long, finally this is the answer for me =)

our love story <3

i'm sooo in loooovvvveeee with him. I love u sooo sooo much!! :))

Alhamdulillah. I am now happy :)

Thank God, i feel so grateful coz atlast i got what i wanted for so long. LOVE. I mean true love. oh im just so happy.too happy for everything i have now. Im no longer thinking bout my ex cause i have found someone even better than him. and now we are on planning to get married. Oh my, i just can't believe it! i hope everything will be according to plan. I just can't wait to start a new life with him. Yes, im so in love and im so happy now. even let say if we face problem in future, i hope we both can handle it cause im soo in love with him. i want to spend my lifetime loving u syg. u are my dearest darling and i just can't stop loving you FAIZ. :)

stalker oh stalker!

a gentle reminder to all stalker:

pls mind your own business. disini saya ingin menasihatkan supaya anda-anda semua stop stalk blog saya. kalau nak tgk, baca, tidak mengapa. Jgn stalk dan jaja cerita-cerita saya, saya sangat tidak suka. kalau anda-anda tidak berpuas hati dgn saya, silalah tampil, we talk face to face ok. Saya mengaku, saya bukan org yg friendly, saya tidak bertudung dan berpakaian agak seksi tapi diri saya tidak boleh diukur dengan hanya penampilan saya semata-mata. jadi para stalker sekalian tolonglah jgn menyibuk. Saya amat tidak suka. Lebih-lebih lagi orang yang stalk page saya itu adalah saudara-mara saya sendiri. LOSER nya anda semua. kenapa perlu stalk, kan lebih manis jika anda sendiri datang face to face tanya apa yg anda hendak tau dari saya? nescaya saya tidak akan mengecewakan anda. Ataupun anda semua ini POSER? depan mcm baik, pijak semut tak mati, belakang mulut macam nak mintak disuapkan najis,kesian. kenapa perlu jadi begitu? marilah! saya menyeru anda semua, STALKER ADIK BERADIK, saya namakan. saya menyeru anda semua tampil untuk menyuarakan ketidak puasan hati anda. Saya dengan rela hati mendengar dan menerimanya. Lagi bagus daripada anda semua stalk page saya, dan menjaja cerita-cerita saya. Apa yg anda dapat? puas hati kerana dilabel MULUT LONGKANG? kalau anda suka dilabel sebegitu, teruskanlah aktiviti MURNI anda. Saya tidak dapat menghalang. Cuma saya berdoa supaya saya dijauhi daripada orang-orang seperti anda. Walaupun anda ialah SAUDARA MARA saya, saya tidak peduli kerana saya sesungguhnya tidak gemar kepada org mulut longkang seperti ini. Sekian saja msg saya buat kali ini. teruskan stalk saya, saya tidak rugi apa2. terima kasih kerana buat seketika saya rasa diri saya sangat dihargai. :)

my heart is empty but it's ok..........

adoihh, sakitnye belakang.errghh sbb ape? kerja kuat sgt kot? kerjala sgt. bukan kau asyik melepak ke? haha. eh lepak2 buat duit xpe.haha whatever lah nora. lately hati rasa berat, sakit sgt. u guys mestila tau sbb ape kan. takpayah i explain pjg lebar. but then, takpelah. things happen for a reason. so i MUST accept walaupun dgn berat hati. 4tahun bukan sng nk lupa. even dah meet new guy pun tak boleh replace everything.haihhh, susah jugak kan becinta ni? sumpah i ckp kalau i boleh turn back time mati hidup semula pun i takkan bercinta. serik nak mati!! erghh. but now i dah okla. takdela sasau mcm dulu just sometimes i do miss him a lot. biarla teruk mcm mane pun die buat i, i still love him. even kitorg xde jodoh pun i still love him. i tak penah bedendam dgn dia. sikit pun tak. walaupun dia byk lukakan i sama ada die sdar or tak, i tak penah benci sikit pun dkat die, i hope he know that even skrg die dah buang semua pasal i dari hidup die, tp memori i dgn dia tetap i simpan. kenangan manis, pahit, i simpan elok2 dalam hati. for me it's a BIG lesson. really big lesson. byk benda yg i blajar dari dia sepanjang 4tahun kami besama. i tak penah cuba untuk erase pasal die dari hidup i. biarla die buang i, tp i tak penah buang die. i harap sgt yg kitorg boleh jadi best fren, but die mcm tak boleh accept i lg. i taktau kenape. maybe die pikir ape yg jadi ni semua salah i, but i taktau why die tak penah nak pikir salah die. i taknak salahkan die. biarlah. biarla die benci i, marah i, block i, buang i. i tak kisah. one day he will realize something. maybe not now. may it takes a year for him to realize everything. i still sayangkan die. seriously i tak boleh lupakan dia. walaupun telalu byk benda yg menyakitkan yg i tempuh dgn die, i still telalu sygkan die. kenapa tuhan ambil dia dari i? kenapa tuhan pisahkan kami? only God knows well. kadang-kadang i still beharap yg die akan kembali ke pangkuan i, i still beharap yg die akan jadi suami yg baik untuk i tapi i tau tu smua hanya angan2 yg tak mungkin jadi kenyataan. Takpelah, God have the answer to all this. I will accept everything with widely open heart. Now i nak fokus on my carrier, nak cari duit byk2 then go travel. Maybe kalau byk lagi duit i nk fly oversea and hidup dkat sana. InsyaAllah, if God wills, i will be there. Guys pls pray for me ya. I wanna be happy even if i have no one by my side. Life must goes on right? so i should not stop to dream big. yes! dream big nora. Face the pain and u will slowly heal, trust yourself. :)

Apakah semua ini?

hm. hi guys. 5th day at work. mood: blank. what to do?? i have no idea. Now im getting better. i can start to forget him, even my heart hurts and believe it or not, i dpt tau something yg i xpenah lansung terfikir akan ada org nak buat i camni. Smalam i pgi berubat dekat darul syifak. Sbb dah lama sgt i jadi mcm x betul, gila bayang, tak tentu arah. I pegi berubat, then ustaz tu ckp rupanya i ade gangguan.. I terjerit2 meracau2 mcm org gila. Ya Allah sakit sgt. Smpai skrg i still x percaya yg i kene gangguan and paling i tak percaya org yg buat benda ni dkat i. Ya Allah dugaan ape yg kau bagi pada aku ni? apa salah aku?? i pun taktau nak ckp ape. Ape yg i boleh buat skrg is just redha dgn segala apa yg tejadi. Pasti ada hikmahnya. Walaupun berat hati nk terima semuani, i terpaksa jugak terima. Semoga hari-hari yg bakal i tempuhi esok akan membawa sinar baru. I seboleh-boleh tak nak igt lagi ape yg terjadi. Biarla tu semua jadi pengajaran dan panduan utk i nak hadapi hidup ni dgn lebih kuat. I akan gagahkan diri, kuatkan hati. Yess i will. I taknak sedih-sedih lagi. Kesian famly i, dorg smua susah hati pasal i. Takkan kerana cinta i nak hancurkan hidup i? tak boleh. I kena bangun dari kegagalan, i kena kuat hadapi semua ni. Yes, i kena kuat. Kwn2 pls doakan i. Doakan i supaya kuat utk hadapi hidup ni. I taknak pikir lagi hal lama. What past is past. Let it passed away. I berdoa supaya Tuhan temukan jodoh i dgn seseorang yg boleh terima i seadanya, dgn seseorang yg mampu membahagiakan i, mampu menjaga i sampai i mati and yg paling penting dia mampu membimbing i ke jalan yg benar. Ya Allah, kau kuatkanlah hati hambamu ini. Kau berilah keredhaan di dalam hatiku. Kau bagilah aku belajar untuk melepaskan segala-galanya dengan tenang. Kau hentikanlah air mataku. Kau berilah kegembiraan dalam hidupku. Semoga semuanya baik-baik saja. Amin.

I still can't forget him.

haihh. today kerja. 2nd day at work; feeling good, but still my heart, not! i don't know why, the more i try to forget him, the more i think about him. Does he feels the same?? i don't want him back. Really i don't but its just so hard to forget him. damn! God why must i feel this way? i can't do anything, all the time my head is haunted by him. I don't have any strength to move on. Why, whyy me?? i hate this feeling. Its killing me. Its really killing me. I wanna live happy. I meet so many friends, but still i can't heal myself. Why i am sooo weakk?? im not like this before. Why? God pls help me. Im stuck! I can go no where!! ;'(

hello friend. hows ur life going on? i hope u guys baik2 saja. ok this time i nak update sikit pasal diri i. haritu 05.03.11 i pegi interview firefly and guess what i lepas interview tu!! pheewww! what a relief and now i nak tgu result je..hopefuly la dpt. guys plss praayyy for me guys!!! i nakkk sgtttt jadi stewardess. nak sgt so badly! pls pray for me!! **finger crossed** and let say if xdpt, i ada dpt 1 lg job, jadi host for web tv, Ahh damn excited!! so i harap i dpt either 1 of this job, tolonngglaaahh bg dapat. dah nak masuk 3 bulan ni i menganggur!! plss kawan2 pls pray for me okayh??? ill pray for u guys too. i promise!! :)

one more thing i nak share ialah pasal love story i. sebelum ni i xpnah share pasal love story i. i xsuka nk crita bab personal life i kat sini. tp this time i nak cerita. my relationship just ended last week after 4 years together. can u imagine? 4 years together, everything i buat together dgn die. but it so sadd when it ended just like that!! i tau, ramai lagi kt luar sana yg face situation sama dgn i. maybe ada yg lebih lama dari i. i tau mcmne prasaan u guys. actually i mmg syg die. syg sgttt! tp what to do, theres no solution after all. so i decide utk break up dgn die. mmg sgt sedih. even skrg i ada lelaki lain but it will never be the same like before. i pun xtau relationship yg baru i ni for serious or just for rebound. tp i just bekawan dulu. tak sanggup lagi teluka. just skrg ni i need strength to move on. i really need strength! i tak kuat guys. serius. even skrg i ok, xsedih, dah tak nangis, but deep inside my heart, God knows well. i mmg xkuat. hati i terluka sgt. can someone help me to heal this plss?? ;'(

i nak cari life baru, i nak cri balik kawan2 yg dah lama i tinggal. i rasa seolah2 i baru hidup balik after a long dead scene. i nk mula hidup baru, but i dont know how?? help me plss guys. if ure reading this, pls drop ur comment support me! i really need it. skrg ni hidup i rasa kosongg sgt.
i xtau mcm mana nk mula balik hdup baru and start back all over again. i dont know how! korg tau x, sepanjang i dgn die, i lupa semua kawan i. i tinggal semua kwan2 i. jahat kan?? tp what to do. im so in love with him til i forget everything bout my friends. but now i promise to myself that i will treat my friends as good as i can. friends are everything to me now. thank god coz give me my best friend ever. i can feel the love!! even no matter how hard my situation is, they stil with me. God, thank you so much for make me realize everything before its too late! ok skrg i nak calm down..nak forget evryy single thing! i need ur support guys! pls support me!!
so till then, tkcare and dream big!! =)

Kerja oh kerja!

haih, sedar tak sedar dah almost 2 month i tak update blog, wah ape aku buat 2 bulan ni? nothing, tp apasal blog aku ni kosong tak berisi. Hmmm, maybe sbb i sakit kawan-kawan. Yes mmg sebab i sakit. I sakit dekat dekat 3 bulan, then bila recover pun still tak betul-betul kuat. Lagi pun i sibok dok mencari keje. Wah panjang betul alasan i kan. Before ni i pikir, " alahh update pun bukan ade org yg nak bace pun. Malaaaassssslaaaahhh nk update". Tapi tenyata telahan i salah sama sekali bila tgk hari2 ade org yg visit blog i. Baru i tersedar dari mimpi, baru terasa nak menulis balik. Sorry readers, lpasni i janji i akan rajinkan diri menulis. Harap janji tak tinggal janjilaah. Hehe.

okay, nk tulis ape yeh? haritu i igt nak continue tulis pasal rendang ayam part 2, tapi sebab i sakit, hilang mood i nk menulis rendang ayam ni. So, i pikir2 nk menulis pasal fashion lah. Tapi, disebabkan i extend study, so mood nk menulis fashion ni, memang hilang sama sekali. So now nak tulis ape ni?? I pun taktau nk tulis ape. Erm. Tolong bagi idea kawan-kawan?? U guys pun xde idea? haihh. Ok xpe. Biar i pikir. Okay, harini i nak cerita pasal cita-cita. Haha mcm kelaka je bunyi cita-cita tu. Sajela nk share dgn u guys, ape cita-cita u guys? I kalau tanye skarang ni, i mmg nak sgt jd stewardess, jgn gelak, i mmg nak sgt. Before ni i dah pgi 3 interview FA, smua failed! haha kesian kat i kan. Tp xpe i tak give up pun, sbb FA ni banyak depends on nasib jugak. Kalau nasib kita baik kita mesti dapat. So kita kene keep on trying lah. Tp i takdela 100% depends on FA semata-mata. Kalau dapat keje lain yg sesuai i sebat je. Tp malangnye, sampai skrg xde lg keje yg sesuai utk i :(

Takpela, maybe bukan rezeki i lagi. I percaya pada rezeki Tuhan, so nora just keep on trying. Lama2 mesti dapat jugak. Dah mencari keje ni, barula i tau bkn senang nak dapat keje kan. Dulu time blaja dok berangan habis je blaja gedebuk keje datang begolek. Jangan berangan la. Hmm nasib baikla i ade mak bapak yg masih sudi menyara i yg dah tua tak sedar diri ni. Kalau tak manela i nak merempat. Ape pun hopefully by Mac ni i akan dapat keje. **finger crossed**
So how bout u guys, ade ke yg same situation dgn i ni? tgh mencari keje? kalau ade i ucapkan selamat mencari keje ye kwn2, hopefully korang dapat keje yg korang nak.

So, okaylah sampai sini saja buat kali ni. Mintak maaf di atas kekeringan idea nk menulis, nanti i brush up otak i ni cari idea ye. Mcm mana nak jadi blogger kalau takde idea ni. Hissh. Ok, cukup jgn nk membebel byk2. Take care and dream big! =)

I'm getting better

Alhamdulillah. Im getting better from day to day. Alhamdulillah. Syukur yg teramat2 sgt..Taktau nk luahkan mcm mana. Bila kita sakit & kita slowly sembuh, rasa mcm x percaya, & believe it or not sepanjang 2 bulan i sakit i rasa i mcm x igt apa2 sepanjang 2 bulan ni. Mcm lost kejap. Bila i tgk pic2 lama i rasa x percaya yg dulu i sihat. However i feel so grateful to Allah. Thankyou for healing me. Thankyou so much. I percaya setiap ape yg berlaku pasti ada hikmahnya. Maybe Allah duga i dgn cara i sakit, tapi disebalik kesakitan yg i hadapi ni maybe ade kemanisan yg i belum rasa. InsyaAllah. Sekurang-kurangnya i semakin ingat pada Allah. Maybe dulu i alpa. I rasa tenang skrg, and i rasa happy. So kpd u guys kt luar sana, kalau sihat tu hargaila kesihatan tu, selalu igt pada Allah & jgn lupa diri, igt kalau Allah nak tarik sekejap je. So oklah. i stop sini dulu. I igt nk post pasal fashion dah lama x buat entri fashion, tgu i cari bahan dulu ok. So i'll see u guys soon. Take care and dream big =)

Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah...lepas berbulan sakit, im now getting better...yes alhamdulillah..Thank God..Rasa mcm nak melompat sampai ke everest kalau sakit i ni fully recover. Bila dah sakit, baru i sedar nikmat kesihatan tu. So kwn2 kt luar sane, kalau sihat tu jagelah kesihatan ye adik2. kalau dah sakit nanti barula tau seksanye mcm mana. By the way, kesihatan i skrg dah bertambah baik. Even tak 100% baik lagi, Alhamdulillah. I dah ok skrg. Dah boleh berjalan sendiri even melelong-lelong jugak kadang2 and ape yg paling penting sepanjang i sakit i sgtlah di pampered kan oleh mak bapak i. Mane taknya, makan i bersuap, mandi i dimandikan, pakai baju pun dipakaikan. OH sgtlaaa manja tak hingat. Bukan i mintak tapi parents i yg nak buat smua tu. Agaknya diorg rindu nk jaga i mcm jaga masa umur i 5 tahun dulu. hehe. tapi bkn nk kata, haritu i mmg sakit teruk.. sampai nk bejalan pun tak boleh, so celah mana kalau i nk mandi sendiri?? tak terbalik pulak i sorang-sorang nk mandi. hmmm dugaan. So Alhamdulillah skrg i dah boleh jalan. Syukur yg teramat syukur. Dekat 2bulan i sakit. Ooohh taktau i nk gambarkan mcm mana perasaan i. Hmm so skrg ni i dkat rumah i di alor star. Dudukla rumah sampai sihat hendaknye and i akan extend my study for 1 semester. Wahh extend pulak bila nk habis belajar entah. Dah tak larat nk belajar dah ni. Takpelah. Ni la dugaan utk i kot. I terima dgn redha nye.. Setidak-tidaknye i sembuh. So tak boleh merungut. Hmm so oklah kwn2, i stop kt sini dulu. Nanti kalau rajin i sambung ok. So don't stop to DREAM BIG ya!! =)

Its almost a month but i'm still the same. ;(

My body still weak. I have no idea why. Im just sick without reason. Help me!!! I want my health back to normal. Pls... God please help me!

Im praying for my health

Lately ni, xsihat selalu. Taktaula sbb ape. Badan sepanjang masa rasa letih, kadang2 sesak nafas & cara becakap dah lain, jadi sengau semacam. :'( God help me. Dah almost a week dah jadi mcm ni taktau sbb ape. Pegi check klinik sampai 2 kali. Test darah pun doktor ckp xde ape2. Just low blood pressure. Ya Allah, help me. I can't stand anymore. I don't want something bad happen. Pls. Let me recover the soonest. Plss...Pretty pls. I just want my health back to normal. Guys please pray for me too. ;'(

Thank God

i love u mama & abah. I love u for every single thing. How i wish i can pay every single thing that u've sacrifice for me. Your time, money, energy and so many things i can't even list. Thankyou for always be by my side. For all the bless you gave. Thank you for showing me the way of life. Thankyou for never giving up in raising me with full of thought & lesson. Thankyou for never dissapointing me for anything that i want. You are greatest mom & dad in my eyes. You will always be. For every minute i breath, i pray that Allah will gives you great health & long live so i can grow old & older with you. I can't imagine my life without you, you are my greatest backbone. Ya Allah, give them all your bless & mercy. Pls love them just like they love me with full of their heart. For every minutes that passed by, i wish i can stay longer wit you, i wish this feeling will never dissapear. ;') Adik sayang mama & abah.

dream BIG.

It's a life decision.

Ok. tajuk kali ni nampak mcm serius, so i tak boleh nak jadi seperti dahulu kala. Tapi sedikit sebanyak rasanya i tak boleh tinggal penyakit gila i walau dlm apa keadaan sekali pun. Haiihh.. What to do that's me. Kalau sekali tgk macam ayu, 2 kali tgk mcm vogue, 3 kali tgk mcm nak cari gaduh, berkali-kali tgk mcm nak mintak sain. Hahaha. Ok, sekian dulu mukadimah untuk hari ini.

Yes. Mmg post kali ni agak serius, mmg serius. I don't know how am i going to explain this. I bet this is not the right time for this story. I should keep it to myself first. I will write everything soon or maybe later. For the time being, I should think of moving on and keep on moving. This is not a love story, it's a lifetime challenge & difficulties i must adapt.

Sad, frustrated, i am. I can't deny. But i believe, things happen for a reason. Time will tell everything. Its not that im giving up, its not that im not trying. I believe, this is not my way. I will keep saying this, cause deep inside my heart, i feel down & frustrated. All i can do now is just follow my heart.

Ok, now im losing my apetite. I felt terrible. My mood swings up and down. I can't think. Im stuck and I just don't know what to do, sometimes, i did cry. I never expect that i will face this kind of situation. To be honest, i am sad. Enough said.

Tomorrow, there's a new hope. I try to rely on it, but i have no idea what is going to happen later. I pray & keep praying for a better day when i wake up the next day. Im scared, im afraid but no matter how bad is the feeling, i shouldn't let all the feeling control myself. I need to fight for myself. I will, InsyaAllah. God is always there for u. ;')

And as i always said, we should never stop to DREAM BIG. Even if we fall down today, doesn't mean we are paralyze tomorrow. Believe in yourself.

STRESS. TENSION. DEPRESSION
maybe i should get use to it. =(